Me Myself & I

Learning a lot about myself these days, I guess it's one of those years, 2010 has been my year for growth, wisdom, life lessons and eye openers.
Relationships have always been something that I have constantly struggled with, being in long term relationships one after the other since I was 15, other relationships such as family and the big issues has always been friends.
These days my relationships have been stronger than ever, I have a best friend, whom I love like no tomorrow, we always joke that we're each others soul mates, and we should eventually just marry each other. It's true. We make each other happy, like no one else could... what else can I say, she beats my drum hard ;] I value my friendships, and cherish the ones that are two ways, and I've learnt how to prevent myself from being hurt from those that don't. It's true what they say, that the most memorable life lessons are sometimes the most painful, because they are the ones you vow to yourself to never repeat the same mistake again.

A recent learning curve I've experience is beginning to be able to reflect, and see my self-worth. I used to be the type of person who regarded myself as an independent person, but really wasn't. I needed someone there, to love me, to nurture me, to value me. I realise now I don't need that anymore.
I am me, I am an independent woman, and I do what I want, because I want to, and because it's what I love, and I don't need to explain my actions to anyone, it's my life, and I have realised I am living for me, and no one else.

I updated my facebook status the other day, but facebook has a character limit. I couldn't fully express what was really on my mind, so I'm going to put it here on my blog.
This entry isn't in anyway meant to be spiteful or hurtful, but for me, an empowerment of how far I have come as a young woman, and how I feelI am growing into a strong independent woman. People have always claimed I am beyond my years, I guess I now understand what they mean.


you can't expect to have me in your life when it suits you, i won't come running when you call. i value myself too much to put myself through it anymore. i tried being there, through everything, but it just won't work.. you can't build a relationship this way.
i'm a different woman to how i was before, i'm stronger, smarter & have come to realise that i deserve better than second best.
i deserve the world, and at one stage, you were mine. but i was foolish to think that standing by you one day, maybe i'd be yours. but now you've realised that it's too late... it's a shame, because what we had, was something special. ♥
you'll always have a place in my heart, but i've realised that my heart belongs to me.


A song i've always really loved, and has always spoken to me is Beyonce's "Me, Myself & I" ... I guess I finally truly understand what these lyrics mean.