*sigh

So today... successfully the most aggravating and biggest fuck up of my life day.
Don't ask me how, but this morning I successfully had an epic fail when I was parking at work and hit the accelerator too hard, ramming my car into the stone wall in front of me, deploying my airbag, smashing my front left indicator, cracking my front bumper and my number plate is now sitting in my back seat.
Sasha now smells like smoke, from the airbag being deployed, and i am wondering how the fk i'm meant to fix this s.o.b. Thinking of getting a new car, but the money? Pfffttt. Loan it would be. Even to get my insurance involved and Sasha fixed would be at least a thousand.
Came home tonight after work hoping to get some comfort from my father, but no. What would possess me to think that I would, all he's doing at the moment is telling me to get my shit sorted, or else I'm going to get fined for having no number plate, and as usual, salt is rubbed into my wounds.
I was so shaky at work today I could hardly do anything right, my mind was on a different planet.
Now I sit in my room feeling all alone, yeah, it's not the end of the world, but lately I feel really alone. Jenna moved to Griffith and moved back but I've hardly heard from her, so I don't know what's going on. Miss K moved to Sydney, and just like Trang mentioned in her latest post, even if you don't get to see them that often, the thought of note being able to see them as frequently as you might like makes you miss them even more. And for some reason, I've been going through a lot of shit lately, and she's the one I want to turn to...
I always know I should save for emergencies, and I've tried... but haven't succeeded. Now is one of those times where I wonder where my life is going and what the fk I'm actually doing... now is one of those times I doubt everything about myself.