getting ready for work but there's something on my mind...
ever notice that those closest to you are the ones that have the most potential to hurt you?
the past year has been one of the hardest of my life. problems with family, boyfriends, best friends and work really shows you where peoples loyalties lie, and it's true. as you grow up you don't loose friends, you just find out who the close one's are, and those who really care are the one's that stand by you, the one's you can cry to and the one's who don't go behind your back, hide things from you or even deceive you, even though the don't feel like they're doing anything wrong, you feel like they're choosing someone else over you.
i've become closer to some beautiful people, and distant with those i believe i am better off without. but life is full of surprises, and i am constantly surprised at how surprised i can still be. i've already done my makeup so let's suppress those tears, but it hurts.
there's one person who is in my life i could not live without, and that's jenna. she's always been there for me, and even though she doesn't answer the phone a majority of the time, she is my number two. the one who always understands what i'm thinking and the one who shares the same heart as me. i love you babe. and fuck you, made me cry LOL
and then there's someone else, who even if i don't have a lot of contact with i know in my heart you're still with me. has changed my life in ways they wouldn't even know and who's wise words stick with me through my daily life. i love you.
and just the same way lady gaga said on wednesday night, fuck you to all those who don't know me, i'd rather die drinking with those who love me and are there for me, than die drinking alone, or with those who constantly deceive me.
i am, and i always will be... theee mizzmai. love me or hate me, i will always be me...
ever notice that those closest to you are the ones that have the most potential to hurt you?
the past year has been one of the hardest of my life. problems with family, boyfriends, best friends and work really shows you where peoples loyalties lie, and it's true. as you grow up you don't loose friends, you just find out who the close one's are, and those who really care are the one's that stand by you, the one's you can cry to and the one's who don't go behind your back, hide things from you or even deceive you, even though the don't feel like they're doing anything wrong, you feel like they're choosing someone else over you.
i've become closer to some beautiful people, and distant with those i believe i am better off without. but life is full of surprises, and i am constantly surprised at how surprised i can still be. i've already done my makeup so let's suppress those tears, but it hurts.
there's one person who is in my life i could not live without, and that's jenna. she's always been there for me, and even though she doesn't answer the phone a majority of the time, she is my number two. the one who always understands what i'm thinking and the one who shares the same heart as me. i love you babe. and fuck you, made me cry LOL
and then there's someone else, who even if i don't have a lot of contact with i know in my heart you're still with me. has changed my life in ways they wouldn't even know and who's wise words stick with me through my daily life. i love you.
and just the same way lady gaga said on wednesday night, fuck you to all those who don't know me, i'd rather die drinking with those who love me and are there for me, than die drinking alone, or with those who constantly deceive me.
i am, and i always will be... theee mizzmai. love me or hate me, i will always be me...
2 thoughts:
love you mai! i dont have a phone yet but you can email me..lol!
I am a hung over lover.
P.S Dave - You and your I don't bother checking Mai's blog anymore. LIES!!
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